#136 - Our Lupus Angels

Another AOL support friend has passed on.

wkatnhat/ very bad news - General Discussion - AOL Message Boards

We have lossed three people to lupus this year.

Melissa, Val, and now Kat.

I am angry, sad, confused...

and feeling a large burden of guilt.

I was very active in the AOL Lupus Board when I was desperately in need.

Newly diagnosed, quite isolated, and frightened...

I met beautiful people from all over who were coping with lupus too.

My memory is so bad now...

that I remember Kat being present, but I can not recall details.

She was there and that is good enough for me. She reached out, she offered support.

Some of our support group are quite vocal, and strong in character...
and there are the quiet ones who gently lift us up...
and the dear ones who pop in bringing a breath of fresh air, a spark of hope...
the ones who add drama to our lives...

like a rainbow, our personalities color the meeting of a diverse group of people joined together by lupus.

Kat was part of our beautiful rainbow.

I called the people on the AOL Lupus Board my "lupus angels".

Without my online friends, I do not think I would have recovered from the grief caused by losing so much, so quickly to lupus.

We have three angels now, quite literally.

And I feel the guilt, because as I have gotten better with coping... I strayed from the support group.

I have taken without giving back.

I need to return.

This entry is not about me, or feeling sorry about this situation, or whatever.

This IS about the need to return sevenfold with gratitude and joy...

all that we take in order to sustain us on this journey.

My profound sympathy to all of Kat's loved ones, and to all of those who were touched by her presence

From the Bible, Ecclesiastes III (King James Version):
3:1 To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:
3:2 A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;
3:3 A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up;
3:4 A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance;
3:5 A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;
3:6 A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away;
3:7 A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
3:8 A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace.